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I've been thinking on this for a few months now, and with recent events, I believe it's time to finally go.

After I finish the things I owe on my to-do list, I'm resigning from my position at co-owner as Makoatls will most likely be under new ownership.

I will most likely moving to a new DA for a fresh start.

The stress of co-owning Makoatls {Though I consider myself more of a breeding artsit} l I cannot handle anymore, despite the fact that I love them dearly.
I can't keep up with things. I can't make people happy and I'm just dragging my feet to get things done- due to my busy life schedule; making myself miserable in the process.

I'll be keeping to myself as more of a background member of the community, not being as active anymore. Or perhaps be a possible ghost staff member; if the new owners want me to be. 
The Makoatls I have  and own will still be with me.

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My love for doing these things- on a co-owner level-  that I did on a daily basis- is absent and no longer there.

I used to love coming online every day, chatting in the group chat with the community, chatting with the staff members on a daily basis, making adopts, designing, working.
But, I'm burnt out, there aren't even ashes of my burn out- that's how burnt out I am.

I lost my enjoyment, it feels more like a chore now to keep up with everything. Simply hoping I make ends meet every month- it's tedious.
Knowing that I keep people waiting, time and time again, weighs on me. Heavily.
It's unacceptable behavior on my part, and for that, I'm truly sorry.
I'm hoping I will grow and not make the same mistakes in the future.

Because I have lost my motivation, my drive and my love for doing these things:
I never finish the projects I start. I think everything I do is ugly. I have no self-confidence- {I didn't have that in myself in a general sense though.}

I've become antisocial, beyond depressed and I have unintentionally pushed people away I care about, as a result.

I cannot keep pretending I belong here- that I do any good in being here.
I lose the staff and family members I grow and love because of my actions- or rather my responses to said actions and I get so much drama behind the scenes, about my design work capabilities.

I have enough to deal with in real life and things have really gone downhill so fast, I cannot keep up with it.
Fights are happening so often;
The tears and heartache is a common everyday thing that I've now accepted as part of my day to day routine.
It's rare that I have happy days now.
Most days I just want to go away and hide and cry, and not get up again.
Eventually, I'm hoping that I just "fake it until I make it."

I'm tired. Tired of being beaten down at every turn- not physically but emotionally.
Every time I feel a bit better, something comes around and knocks me down again.
However, every time I get knocked down- it's further down the pit each time and harder to climb out of.
I have come to the realization I cannot climb anymore.

I have come to realize that I can't go on like this.
I make friends but I lose them, I can't handle the heartbreak. I'm so tired of losing everyone I hold dear.


It's been an honor being a part of Makoatls. They will always have a special place somewhere deep in my heart but for now, I need to move on and discover what I can be capable of.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in the past. Thank you for the laughs and smiles we shared and I hope when you think of me, you think of the good memories.

Farewell, everyone.
Thank you for everything you guys have done for me.

I wish you all of the best <3
Please be happy in doing everything you guys do.

I love you all <3
Thank you all again <3

~Juliette,
Formally, co-owner of the Makoatl Staff




TLDR;

:iconevolantiss:

It has come for me to resign from my position in Makoatls. {And possibly leave this Deviant Art account as a whole}
It's been an honor being a part of Makoatls and the community.
Makoatls will always have a special place somewhere deep in my heart but for now, I need to move on and discover what I can be capable of.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in the past. Thank you for the laughs and smiles we shared and I hope when you think of me, you think of the good memories.

Farewell, everyone.
Thank you for everything you guys have done for me.
Thank you for the memories we've shared together. Thank you very much for all of your support.

I wish you all of the best <3
Please be happy in doing everything you guys do.

I love you all <3
Thank you all again <3

~Juliette

Formally, co-owner of the Makoatl Staff


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Sake-Loup Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! Your art is so pretty ;w; <3
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Cole-Stargazer Featured By Owner May 24, 2017   General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUN I LOVE YOU AAAAA <33333
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Chimerafrost Featured By Owner May 7, 2017
thanks so much for the favorite !!!
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HumbleTechnologist Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello! Thank you so much for the fave and watch!! :heart:
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PlagueMage Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for faving me ♫
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lydia-san Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey there :wave: thank you so much for the watch, it means a lot :hug:
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SiiroiToriorika Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
Thank you for the watch!
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Martith Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's a real pleasure to welcome you to
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Please stretch your paws, lay your ears and get some rest here! :3
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